Summer colour craze

I am so in the mood for lighter clothing these days, I can not wait for spring to arrive. Today was a sunny and lovely day, a day full of promises for an early spring. Well, we will see, March can be volatile:)

Despite the sun it was chilly enough to wear my camel wool coat. These jeans are just perfect, they stretch well, have a great colour (had to get one in gray also), they fit well, and cost almost nothing at h&m. Run and get some!

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Sweater - vintage jeans - h&m Leather boots- h&m exclusive shades - Dolce &Gabbana

Sweater – vintage
jeans – h&m
Leather boots- h&m exclusive
shades – Dolce &Gabbana

I will roar!

How do you come to terms with having a chronic illness? I do not have the answer to this question, but I will share some of my thoughts, emotions, struggles and hopes.

For those who have followed me for a while, you know that I have had a sleeping disorder since I worked overnight shifts 10 years ago. 7 years of poor sleep and lots of work resulted in me collapsing about 3 years ago. Since, I have slowly worked myself up to working 50%. I am a different person now. I used to be able to do anything I wanted, to be able to push myself to new limits, learn more, work more, experience more. My willpower was one of my strongest assets. It is no more…not in the same sense, anyway. My body`s signals are stronger than my willpower now. If I am tired, I can no longer will myself to get going.

Sometimes it feels like I have lost, lost to my body. Other times I am thankful that my body will tell me what it needs. It used to whisper, and I did not listen. Now it roars!

Like a lion, it roars. I need to keep it happy, in check, for it not to consume me. It will be a dance between us, sometimes a playful dance, sometimes a dance for life. I am no longer the king of the savannah, there are two of us, and sometimes I have to yield. And the costs of yielding is high.

I can accept that I have to use medication, I can accept that I can not work the way I used to, and that my social life suffers. But can I accept that I might not be able to bring a child to this world, because I get so ill? Not now. Maybe never.

So I will roar back, as much as I can.  But, it is hard to know what will sustain me in this jungle. There is, truly, a jungle out there, with advice on how to heal. I have tried so, so many things. After a while, I just needed to rest from it. Trying to heal was exhausting. Now, I put my trust in nature.

I am giving my body the healing powers of the greens in nature. Every day now, I am juicing or making smoothies, drinking fermented juice, reducing the anti-nutrients of grains. It takes time to plan, because it is a new way of eating. But, if I could get my life back, that is a small, small sacrifice.

I sense a shift in my body. It awakens. Slowly. I can roar higher. I may not win the battle against the lion, but I can live side by side with it. And hopefully, soon, live side by side with it without fear that it will take all my dreams away. The dreams of a good life and a family.

Hopefully,

S

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A wonderful night in blue

It is wonderful to have friends over for good food and wine. Our friends seemed to enjoy both the tapas and the company.

I was experimenting with a different make-up look. I usually tend to make my eyes pop, but this time I used only pink eyeshadow and no mascara, to really make the lips get the attention.

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Dress-Vivienne Westwood Anglomania Clutch- BCBG Pumps- Michael Kors Lips- “marilyn” by MakeupMekka

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Fashion weeks are on…aj aj aj Marchesa!

Sadly, I am not present. It would be wonderful to get invitations to the big events and travel the world, alas I have a “real” job (no offense to the fashion editors) that I have to be around for. But, off course, I follow it from the sideline.

One runway presentation that caught my eye, was Marchesa┬┤s. In a classy 20s style they showed how we will party next winter:) I like it!

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DVF

I know, I know, my recent updating on my blog has been…well, rubbish! I have not been inspired, I have to admit, but now the daylight is getting longer, I am a bit more energized (will write more about why soon), so there is hope for the future..so don`t unfollow just yet:-))))

How has your Valentine`s Day been? I know it is a bit of a controversial day. Some absolutely love it, some dread it. I kind of like the Scandinavian name for it, which means Day of all Hearts, which to me feels more inclusive for everyone, not just couples, but also friends, family and whomever who is important to you. I do not condone the idea of a day that would exclude anyone, or rather, making someone feel excluded. There is nothing wrong about not being in a relationship and getting flowers and chocolate!

That being said, I am grateful when my husband buys me flowers and gluten free cake, and takes me out to dinner. It makes me feel like we are doing something for the couple, and not just sitting next to one another like we often do and stare in our computers:-)

So, on our way out for dinner, I dressed in blue lace (baby blue, or any kind of blue, is still a favourite), a great new Diane Von Furstenberg wrap shirt and my Chanel hip bar used as a clutch. My little contribution to the 70s, a style that will really make a comeback this spring. I am not a huge fan of some of the styles from the era, but like others, like this classic cut shirt.

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The go-to item of winter

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Coat- vila Blouse - KappAhl Cardigan - expresso Pants- old Boots- Bianco Bag- DKNY

Coat- vila
Blouse – KappAhl
Cardigan – expresso
Pants- old
Boots- Bianco
Bag- DKNY, Sunglasses- Dolce & Gabanna

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These wool pants are really old, but they are my go-to in winter when I am cold and want to be comfy. They are of a pins-striped wool blend fabric and with zippers in the bottom, so they can be worn over any old chunky winter boot. It`s all about comfort these days:-)

What is your go-to item when it is cold?