Real life ootd

  Ha ha this is today`s outfit of the day. True story. I got as far as from my bed to the sofa. My body will not allow me more.

Actually, I can laugh at the picture, but inside I feel sad. 

For a few months now, I have felt increasingly better. I try my best to make the right choices, in order to get more healthy, among those, eating well. Tons of greens. Less sugar. Sprouts. Less medication. Therapy.

All I want, is to get some of my life back! 

The last two weeks I almost felt that I had. I could do normal things – things you probably take for granted – take long walks in the sun, socialize, do more work in the house and the terrace. Just a few months ago I could not do these things, if I had also been to work. It has felt so good to have this freedom again. The freedom to do quite ordinary things. To give life a smile. 

Thursday my body told me something. Perhaps it told me I had overdone it. Perhaps it needed to remind me that I still need to work on the progress. Perhaps a few nights of poorer sleep had taken the toll. Perhaps it just shuts down on occasion. On Friday I pulled myself to yoga, and it cleared everything up! Yoga always knows best! Just start to practice, and it will tell you what your body needs right now. So I got eager, and did some tough yoga again on Saturday. Eagerness is wonderful. Eagerness can be dangerous. Saturday I shut down again. When I am like this, it is not only my body, but also my mind. My cognition is so tightly knit with my body, I can not even carry a normal conversation. I can not focus. My head is heavy. My body is heavy. And I am saddened. Discouraged. And I have to let myself be sad and discouraged. Let it out. Acknowledge that this state causes me to believe that my life will be this way forever.

Until I can believe, once again, that everything will change. Nothing ever stays the same. The only reason why we linger in the same emotions all the time, is because we can not let go of our convictions, our thoughts. We think them over and over again, with the same emotions as a result. Notice. Notice how you create your world by believing or not believing your current thoughts. They are just thoughts. You do not have to listen to them. Notice. Are there any other thoughts that you may be able to trust in? Notice. How can they open up your mind to a different outlook?

Today, I am working on mine. Noticing. Accepting. Exploring. Starting anew. I want more of what feels good. So, I will do more of what took me there. And first, I have to listen to my body who tells me I can not do anything today. So, I can choose to curse it. Or, I can choose to embrace it`s clear message to me. Sometimes life throws us curveballs, and we have to decide how to catch them. When to sit down and let life happen. When to act. And, perhaps most importantly, learn how to work WITH life, and not against it. We struggle more when we fight what is happening to us. Acknowledge the experience, and from there, you can find new paths.

What I CAN do, it to give me more of my nutritional medicine…..

  

It pains me…

It pains me to experience that I live in a world full of prejudice and hatred. It is not that I did not know. But, it continues to astound me and hurt me. Perhaps it has to, so that I do not become one of the people, who have distanced themselves from others.

This time, the discussion is around refugees from Asia and Africa, trying to escape from horrors in their own countries, by boat to Italy. So many people have already died, trying to make this trip. Still, boats filled to the rim with men, women and children, spite the fear of dying. To me, that is a testament that staying must be worse than dying.

I have experienced fear, indeed, but this kind of fear, I do not think I could even imagine. Could you?

Many, many Norwegians have commented on the news online today, wishing death upon these refugees, wishing that someone would take care of this “problem”. What if, that “problem” was you, or someone you love?

What if it were? A generation or two ago, life was hard here in Norway, and as many as 1/4 of our population travelled by boat to the Promised Land, the US and Canada, to build themselves a better life. Many were able to do just that, and built themselves a life, from hard work. What had happened if the USA and Canada did not want them there. What if they had sunk the ships? What if they had been full of hatred towards the people who wanted to buy a piece of land, so they could support themselves and their families? What if 1/4 of us had died a horrible death?

We need to have a political discussion on how many a small nation like Norway can save, that is true. This, though, is something far beyond a political discussion. This is a total lack of empathy. This is fear. This is an us-against-you attitude we have seen present so many time, when peoples of the world have experienced their privileges threatened. This is a way for us to distance ourselves from others, emotionally, and leaves us with a feeling of justification for our attitudes. This is simple psychology. This is a common defense mechanism. This is, by extension, primitive. 

To those of you who say that some countries need to start to make the changes they want to see. I hear you! That is crucial. Does that make the tragedy less for those who feel that there is no other way than risking their lives on a boat? Hardly.

Imagine, 1941, a Norway occupied by the Germans. Some people lived in fear of their lives. A few decided to fight against the new regime, underground. Many died from it. Some could not live in fear anymore, and escaped to Sweden. Sweden, luckily, welcomed them and took care of them. They did not blame them for being in the situation they were in. They offered a place, in which they could continue to fight for changes, but away from the immediate fear of punishment and death. If it were not for them, for the Allies, the armed forced that helped…who knows where we would have been today. Desperately trying to board a boat along the coast to get to England? To Iceland? To anywhere that could seem like a save haven? Would you have gone? I probably would, even though the odds of surviving would be small. Because where there is not hope, there is no life….

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Innovative, old or timeless?


Yeah, yeah, I know. It is not very innovative. But, I have this thing for stripes these days, and I guess that is lucky, because stores are just filling up with the pattern! I find them timeless, and you can go for the inexpensive items, because most things striped, look rather exclusive. What is fun, though, is to combine stripes and flowers, stripes on stripes, different kinds of stripes…anything that will make the old, but good, pattern, interesting. How would you style your stripes? IMG_5704 IMG_5701 IMG_5699 IMG_5691IMG_5684IMG_5699
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The hiking outfit

Well, hiking might be an overstatement, but my hubby and I went for a walk in the area, and then we ended the walk at the mall, to do some errands. Since my husband is not Scandinavian, he is still a stranger to walking, for no other purpose than just walking, like we do here. When I suggest we go (as in walk) somewhere, he always asks “Why? We have a perfectly fine car”.

When I lived in the US, and was out for a walk, people would stop their cars and ask if my car had broken down. They always seemed so surprised when they understood that I was walking of my own free will :-) Those funny cultural differences :-)

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How to drink your greens:-)

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Drink sunshine!

Frozen mango and pineapple, some broccoli, 1 Jerusalem artichoke, Apple juice, dried white mulberries, Baobab powder.

A tip: when using broccoli, I slice off the stem and put the pieces in the freezer, so when making a smoothie, I just take out a few slices and put them in the blender.

Bon appétit!

Finally, my belly is normalizing, after more than two weeks of pain. I was afraid that other food sensitivities had surfaced, but now it seems like it was indeed the sweetener Maltitol who caused all this. And that, I can stay away from, no problem!

It is great to feel that my energy level is rising since I started to drink my greens. My sleep is better (yes, I know, I know, I take anti-epileptic meds to help me sleep, but I use less than before), and my concentration as well!

What foods work for you? There are so many different experiences out there!

Love, S

PS. Follow me on Instagram for frequent tips on how to vary your smoothies and drink your veggies:-)

@sonjadurand